Friday, June 11, 2010

231

It's just a number. It's just a number. It's...

...my friggin' WEIGHT as of last night. ZOIKS!

As a lot of you know, I've managed to get out of debt recently, all the while making myself accountable to YOU. It's the only thing in my entire adult life that has worked for me because I wasn't just answering to myself. I had all 3 of you to answer to (okay - maybe there were 4-5 of you).

Time to do that with my weight. I have gained weight bit by bit, day by day, month by month, and year by year since I had my thyroid removed five years ago. I weigh more today than I ever have in my entire life.

My justification? I haven't had a man in my life for well over 10 years to get daily comfort and guidance and love. Yet food - oh delicious spicy-nacho-cheese-doritos-covered-with-cheese-beans-corn-olives-morecheese-guacamole-sourcream delights that made me so happy was always, ALWAYS waiting and willing and welcoming with open arms. Daily.

And my protruding gut continues to show that love.

YUCK.

I need to get control. I need to change what makes me happy. I need to like myself again. I need to be healthy. I need to get control of my headaches. I need to turn 40 feeling like I'm 30.

I need your encouragement and guidance and support and I need your stern disapproval when I slip. I need to be held accountable and I need you.

231 will NOT be shown on any scale that I ever step on EVER AGAIN.

17 comments:

Doug and Cherai said...

I am proud to be the first poster on your new blog. I loved the last one and look how far you came. Now you can do it again with your next hurdle. YOU CAN DO IT!

Jenna said...

I am so proud of you Tara! You are in control of your finances and now it is time for your body and your health!

YOU CAN DO IT! You are awesome!

Cassie and Chad said...

Congratulations and good luck...maybe you could motivate the rest of us!

Natalie said...

Yay! There are now officially four people who follow you! :) Good for you for setting goals and sticking to them! I always do better when I am accountable to someone else - is that bad? Hey, it gets the job done! :) We really still need to have you out for dinner sometime, maybe later this month when I am actually up to cooking again! :) LOVE YOU!
Natalie

Don and Sandy said...

Wow, now that takes guts(no pun intended) Good luck and wouldn't it be nice if we could all get hints and recipes from each other. I need to lose a bunch too. I am hoping for inspiration. Will be checking in on you dailey.I know you will do it!

Sandra said...

Good luck, Tara. I know you can do it even though dieting is hard. What diet plan are you planning to use?

Tara LaRue said...

I'm using this weight loss/maintenance plan:

http://www.drjamesamartinweightcontrol.com/index.html

Brian Duffin said...

My wife recently had a "Biggest Loser" contest with her friends. She lost nearly 20 lbs doing it. It's not easy, but it can be done.

Just a few weeks ago, I started doing Weight Watchers to lose some extra lbs. I'm down 14 lbs and feeling much better with the extra weight off.

Good luck and best wishes on your weight loss journey!!! YOU CAN DO IT!!!

Leslie said...

Good luck Tara. I know what you mean about the numbers. We will all be there to support each other. We are planning a cruise in October, that is what is giving me the inspiration.

Stacey said...

good luck, Tara. You'll do great. We all need to lose weight, you're just the bravest of us all.

Beth said...

You're outstanding in all you do! You're going to do great! :)

Tobie said...

Starting a healthy life style was by far the hardest thing I ever did. I hope you are including exercise in your life style change. I found that exercise was easier then the food habit change. Start little (walking, etc.) and work up to something that will really get the weight coming off. I run 4-5 miles 3 times a week and it helped me loose 20lbs. and I have kept it off for a year now. You Can DO IT!!!!
Love ya,
Mistie

Jen Shumway said...

The number doesn't matter to anyone but you. We love you anyways. I love that you are willing to be so open. good luck I wish I could get control also.

Jennifer said...

You're so brave.

I'm so proud of you.

And I love you for it!

Jessi said...

You're Amazing!

Allyson & Jere said...

First and foremost....SO Glad hyou're blogging again, whatever the reason or motivation.

Secondly.....my hats are WAYYYY off to ya for just blurting out your weight to the world. I KNOW it's just a number, but it's still hard to say out loud, to everyone.

Thirdly, proud of you for getting up and using the treadmill. I promise, working out is AWESOME! You always feel better for doing it. Not always easy to get up and get going, but so worth it in the end.

I feel ya on the, can't stop sweating to put make up on part. I hate that.

Maybe I'll get enough motivation to actually start really working on my eating habits. i mean, yeah, gave up sugar, whatevs. workout all the time, whatevs. Does me no good if all i eat is crackers and copious amounts of cheese. Somehow, the weight,she does not fall off that way.

So, good luck sister!

leslie w said...

Ok. You can soooo do this!! I am sending this address to my sisters they will like it too. I haven't worked out in 3 years!! BUT I joined the guy yesterday so I am right there with you!! Here we go. I don't love working out but I love the way it makes me feel and look. WE can do it!

Love you Chicka!!